Shutting down towards feelings.
Coz feelings are not something anyone can control.
One day u love someone, the next day u're just not sure.
And vice versa, one day a guy can adore you and the next day adore someone else.
And there's no one you can blame.. but blame it on feelings, a change of heart, a state of confusion.
I'm slowly diverting my future plans.
I'm tired of waiting for something... someone.. the one... watever u wanna call it.
Coz I shouldn't depend my future on some guy to come riding in a white horse to 'save' me.
I should just depend on myself to be happy.
I slowly stop seeing myself married and starting my own family anymore
I start to see myself, independent being on my own in a foreign country, a house by the beach, a dog as my companion and a few close friends to hang out with and I see myself contented with that.
I just don't wanna be stuck in this rut any longer.
I just want out but I don't know how.
that would be me in the future, except the dog would be way bigger and there won't be a guy :(
4 comments:
oh no.. why???..
dun worry.. next yr it is...!
I can see where you are coming from - i hope that whatever it is, or whoever it is, you will find that sense of 'wholeness' and contentment.
jess.. sigh no why jus feel like running away
jasveen.. thanks :) same goes for u... i kinda wish i cud be in ur shoes now... being on my own.. living like a nomad..
oops..u starting to have similar thinking as me now...lolx...except, i have become slightly bit too workaholic as wht my fren said =="
-isabel-
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